A Story TellinG Memories

I really don't know what should i say & descript my situation & also my feeling now. Do you know that HUTANG is a kind of a bad thing that i didn't even think about it. Before this i speak to myself: do not borrow money to anyone even you have no money. But unfortunely, its really happen on me now. And now i had alots of HUTANG. How i am gonna to do?! No wonder people because of HUTANG can willing to kill themself or even run away. Now that i know this is what their feeling actually. Sometimes i really fade up on this.. sometimes i also think twice: do i so in hurry? I don't know. Might yes might no but yes. Haihh... $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$..........Can you fly to me?? I do wish $$$ can appear in my pocket when i wake up (since X'mas is near, santa claus.. santa claus.. can you gift me money... i will kiss you anyway for thankfull) hehe.. im really in crazy...how can i speak to myself about this??!! Oh Gosh.. am i will be like them? All crazy? I don't want...i don't want. its too scary! By the way, hopefully i can saw my 'gui ren' and my solution fly away from me. hahaha...qi xin liao...