A Story TellinG Memories

I really don't know what should i say & descript my situation & also my feeling now. Do you know that HUTANG is a kind of a bad thing that i didn't even think about it. Before this i speak to myself: do not borrow money to anyone even you have no money. But unfortunely, its really happen on me now. And now i had alots of HUTANG. How i am gonna to do?! No wonder people because of HUTANG can willing to kill themself or even run away. Now that i know this is what their feeling actually. Sometimes i really fade up on this.. sometimes i also think twice: do i so in hurry? I don't know. Might yes might no but yes. Haihh... $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$..........Can you fly to me?? I do wish $$$ can appear in my pocket when i wake up (since X'mas is near, santa claus.. santa claus.. can you gift me money... i will kiss you anyway for thankfull) hehe.. im really in crazy...how can i speak to myself about this??!! Oh Gosh.. am i will be like them? All crazy? I don't want...i don't want. its too scary! By the way, hopefully i can saw my 'gui ren' and my solution fly away from me. hahaha...qi xin liao...

arrgghh.... Im so hate so trusting a friend now. PUKIMAK you JOYCE TAN JIN YOUNG- course PENDIDIKAN MORAL! I dn care you saw this blog or not, but the main point i write this blog its just for you and I AM SO HATE OF YOU! What da TIKUS and MAHAI person. How dare you talking bad behind me and in the same time you talk people's bad in front of me. Do this a MORAL TEACHER study for 4 years at UPSI? You must go buy COFFIN and TANAM SENDIRI inside and go NERAKA and DIE! I'm still remember that i asked about you and (B). You said you guys always fight. I ask you do not do anything that some people dn like. Then you ask me do (B) said anything about you. I said yes (because its true). but i dn wan to tell her but she force me. Then i say out is who. (Actually (B) did said bad thing also about JIN YOUNG). BUT..last2, i pulak kena BOOM. What da fuck! i curse you-JIN YOUNG go die soon and TIAN SHOU NI. and wish you fat like a FAT PIG and no body will like you. You do this to me and im sure you will not get any good from anyone. FUCKER!

1st thing i want to say is i am so 'paiseh' to Irise, Sam, Joanne. They saw me cried today. i felt so terrible and useless. A little thing also can cry. Huhu... but this is me. Me- so much scare with my siblings. They are too strict to me. Even i make up, highhill, or even short pants at home also get comment from them. I really don't know what the actually main point. Do they scare me will cheated by Herbalife or my changes? I really confuse. Last night, my brother comment me about Why Using Make Up? ( I was stone..) What's wrong if i make up? Do i did a wrong thing or Sin? Or i make up and my life change? Highill... cannot wear highill, it will make ur leg pain and cacat. OMG!! Whats the point?! Short pants.. Whats wrong i wearing a short pants just at home only and not at outside? They answered " don't you feel cold and many NYAMUK?" Arggg!! Hello...im big already. Im not a 10th years old kids? Don't worry! (I promise to u all). I got my limited and i will compare which 1 is right or not. And also i will success! Thanks to all my Herbalife's friends. You guys are cool! You guys very good in motivation. Sam! Thank you. You are the best! hehe... Sam, Don't kembang hidung a...haha. I know who ever will read my blog confirm will not understand what im talking about. Just 'them' who are know me then will know this story.

Am i right to choosing this kind of work? I really don't know and really STRESS about it. Last night called my brother in Singapore, he totally don't support me in this Herbalife. And he said ' i don't like you jual body or maruah to get that money and buy products'. If really gagal, would they help u to solve your problem or they just want your money actually? I don't know. I also scare to touch those things actually cause they said i don't have any experience in sales, will gagal at last. Maybe they right. I ask my friends and sibling, they also said a same thing to me. Do this is a hint to show me that don't take serious in this work? Maybe yes maybe no. Confuse.. confuse.. Do this money important to me? Yes. How much important? I don't know. To show off? Maybe yes. Do it right? No. Haiz... What should i do?! Do i have to listen of my own family or my friends? Who should i listen?! Im just like a girl with no direction to go. Just like stupid! I think maybe i should listen to my family. Don't know...who knows... no body will know... I also don't know... rather die if like this.

Hahaha... Today so funny. My exam is on 3.00pm (Western Music). I was woke up early today, 9am. (as before i woke up at 1pm..hehe). So i study and study cause didn't study for few days ago. Until 2pm, my head was so damn tired. I was think i just want to sleep a while. So i alarm my clock at 2.15pm. When the alarm is ringing, i off it and i changed it to 2.25pm. Without any worries, i sleep...sleep... and sleep... When i was awake, i felt weird. When i look the time, its was already 2.53pm. Walao... can'e believe! So i go watch my watch "IT"S 2.53pm" OMG! I was hurry up get my dress up and go out with my bycicle. I was running with my bycicle. So fast...so fast... I can feel that my bycicle goin to lompat-lompat. Haha... When i reached school, its was already 3.10pm. Alls laughing me. My heart was pam so fast. Luckily, i did finish my paper even i late. Haha... thanks God. 830pm got practise Wind Orchestra. Ed (one of my coursemate) was looking and laughing at me. U know what?! They said they saw me was drive the bycicle so fast just like "kura-kura". Shit! What da Shame Shit! Hehehe... Tell you.. Its was my Twice Time already been late to exam. Once when i sem3, and now sem7. So much fun!